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(enlighten me)

[02 Jan 2005|07:30pm]
[ mood | happy ]

In the year 2005 I resolve to:

Stealing all of my music off of the Internet.

Get your resolution here




Interesting... I completely disregard the whole resolution-making process, and end up with this. I suppose I wouldn't call it "stealing" any more than I'd call it getting it for free.

Took up writing Queens of the Forbidden again today. I haven't touched that fic much for a few months, I think. I was having an extra-long writers block. I have a lot of little scenes in my head, but no idea how to sew them all together. I'm doing okay now though.

It's been raining way too much for me to want to go and do anything besides sit at the window and think about nothing.

(enlighten me)

The New Year [01 Jan 2005|08:15am]
[ mood | cold ]

I am feeling rather obligated to post something in my journal, just because it's the first day of the new year. Problem is, I don't have much to write, and I have such a headache from yesterday I can't come up with any resolutions.

Once again, I'm down here in SoCal where it's been raining like a madman, but it's stopped for the time being. I've gotten tons of late Christmas money, and sponsorship money for that student ambassador trip to Europe. I'm so excited about that! I've raised about a fifth of it already, and it's only been a month. I am very proud of myself for not spending any yet, besides the $150 I set aside for special "occasions".

I've been so completely out of it lately. I'm at my aunt's house that is under construction at the moment, which has been really hard on my aunt, considering she has to be a host for my family, and try to take care of hers while her kitchen is not completed or functioning. We have to eat out for every meal, or survive off of unperishable foods. She doesn't have any clocks up yet either, so I never know what time it is, which is why this week has been a blur. I've mainly babysat my 1 1/2 year-old cousin, who is very cute and very well behaved. I got paid a lot though, since he's rather stubborn at times, and my aunt was so caught up with the construction, so helping her out with babysitting was good. The baby has come rather attached to me, I'll say. He's so cute though.

Ah, the family calls. More later.

(enlighten me)

Oh yeah... [26 Dec 2004|09:43pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

TWT
THE WEASLY TWINS


Which Harry Potter Boy Are You Made For?
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Thanks for sharing, Bella!

(enlighten me)

[25 Dec 2004|09:36pm]
[ mood | content ]

I can't believe Christmas has come and is about to be gone in--(checks clock)--two hours and twenty-two minutes. Incredible. I am happy to say though, that Christmas day felt a lot more like Christmas than the past week has. I finally got to relax and just sit at home with the family. My brother and I actually got along for once, and sat through three games of chess in front of the fire. Very cozy.

I'm so stoked because I got a bunch of cash from my family that's going directly to my student ambassador fund. I need $5,000 by June, so I'm spending absolutely no money on anything that I absolutely positively don't need. It's very hard thinking about each thing I'm holding at the store, and asking myself, "Now do you REALLY REALLY need this? You can live without it until June, right?" It's a right pain in the ass, but going on this leadership trip to Europe is a lot more important to me than that new jacket.

I wonder... Has anybody heard of the People to People Student Ambassodor program? It was established by President Dwight D. Eisenhower in 1956, because he thought that if people from different places could get along, eventually countries would too. Anyway, there's a bunch of delegates that go oversees for about a month during the summer, and get to do all this awesome stuff like see landmarks and go to government briefings in England and such. I'm so so excited!

Anyway, so here's a picture of our wonderously decorated tree:

The Tree

Again, hope everyone had a great holiday! New Year's Eve is just around the corner... Oh, joy.

(2 thoughts | enlighten me)

[23 Dec 2004|10:51am]
[ mood | Very Anti-Christmas Spirit ]

I can't believe tomorrow is Christmas eve. It doesn't feel like Christmas AT ALL At least, it doesn't feel like it for me. I don't know why, but as I get older, Christmas seems to lose its signifance. I used to get so excited about getting a tree, giving gifts, eating candy canes, but now it's all just a blur. The only thing I'm really astounded by is how quickly 2004 went by. It feels like summertime was only last month, and I was only just finishing up on my latest challenge reply at Marauding Muses (Funny, how we've seemed to have abandoned that community).

Well, I just want to get Christmas behind me and start the new year. This month is dragging on and on. I thought it was already Christmas morning when I woke up today, only to find that it's Thursday. I'm so completely out of it, and am feeling particularly Scrooge-y. :(

(enlighten me)

Muggle Net [20 Dec 2004|03:20pm]
[ mood | curious ]

I just went to MuggleNet.com for the first time, and let me tell you, going from the Realm to Muggle Net is like jumping from a small private school to a 1500+ student public school. There are tens of thousands of members! The site itself is HUGE. It'll take me a few days to get used to it and find out exactly what's going on, and where. It's all looking quite complicated right now. There's just page upon page of stuff. I doubt I'll get to know anyone there as I do on the Realm. There're new members each day, and more'll probably be coming with the release of the sixth book.

Back to getting lost at Muggle Net...

(enlighten me)

And Right Before Christmas... [17 Dec 2004|10:22pm]
[ mood | thankful ]

I don't believe this. My dad was hit by a car today. I. Can. Not. Believe. It. Thankfully, nothing's broken, and he's walking around okay. He says he's rather sore, and his shoulder hurts where he landed first. I swear I almost cried when I found out.

Lots of people I know seem to be having a lot of physical problems lately. A friend of mine has thyroid cancer and needs to have her thyroid removed. The sister of another friend has to have one of her ovaries removed on Monday. In a week, a five-year-old girl I know, who was attacked by a dog when she was three, has to have another surgery on her face where the dog's teeth tore it open. This is her fourth surgery, and she's only five years old... I can't believe all of this is happening right before Christmas. You think nothing can ruin this time of year for you, but there's always something. In my case, four things. I'm just praying everyone will be alright.

To all that are well out there, be thankful, because you really don't have it that bad off. Merry Christmas, all.

(enlighten me)

The Ironies of Life [24 Nov 2004|11:08pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

There's a woman who used to always walk by my school during the afternoon. She was a middle-aged Asian with short spiky hair, funky glasses, pants in two sizes too tight, and a tanktop that was so tight half of her stomach seeped out through the bottom. (Note that this is no model's body.) She would always walk past with a hand cluched around a purse, head held high, and walking as if she were on the runways in Tokyo or Milan. It was obviously the signs of insanity.

The boys at my school used to fake catcalls to her, or just disregard the mocking catcalls altogether and tell her to get clothes that fit. She would always walk by, completely ignoring them. One time she did turn our way, gave us the finger, and pulled down her shirt as if to prove to us it could cover up her lower stomach, although, just barely.

A month ago, I discovered that that woman was the neighbor of one of the secretaries at my school. They had been neighbors for a long time, and the secretary was told by the lady's mother that her daughter had once been really really smart, and went off to college as top of her class. However, at college, stress really put a number on the woman, and it eventually became too much to handle. She reached her breaking point, and that's when she came back home, without finishing college. Instead of coming back with a degree, she returned slightly crazed and forever changed.

Stories like these really make me wonder: how many other ironic instances will happen in one's life? The woman and her mother expected her to exceed in life. She was always on top of everyone else. Yet, now, here she is, in skimpy clothes and being mocked by students.

(enlighten me)

[24 Nov 2004|09:46pm]
[ mood | cold ]

Fire
Your element is Fire: Strong, hot tempered,
powerful, and passionate. Well now lets see,
being fire you are quite strong and powerful,
people look up to you greatly and often seek
your protection. You have the ability to gain
many friends and you are always one people can
count on to do what you say you will do. You
are extremely loyal be it friends or family
you'll stick up for them and you are never
willing to put them in a position that could
hurt them. You know what roll you play in life,
leader, and you intend to let people know it.
Not everyone is capable of leadership but you
certainly have the willpower and flare to do
it. You have quite a temper if it shows itself,
one that can often lead you into trouble. Once
your mind is made up there is no changing it
but no one said that was a bad thing.


.:-|What is your true element?|-:. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
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The Seer-- Most people don't really get you. Which has good and bad points... you'd be depressed, but that can get so annoying so quickly, it's really not worth the time or energy. You%
The Seer (I'm Not Mean! I'm Honest...)


What Type of Slytherin Are You?
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You know, I think the majority of all of my little quizzes and other similar things are taken from Laura's journal... ;)

(enlighten me)

[21 Nov 2004|07:36pm]


You Are the Reformer



1




You're a responsible person - with a clear sense of right and wrong.

High standards are important to you, and you do everything to meet them.

You are your own worst critic, feeling ashamed if you're not perfect.

You have the highest integrity, and people expect you to be fair.




Okay, I guess this could fairly describe me.



You Are From the Moon



You can vibe with the steady rhythms of the Moon.
You're in touch with your emotions and intuition.
You possess a great, unmatched imagination - and an infinite memory.
Ultra-sensitive, you feel at home anywhere (or with anyone).
A total healer, you light the way in the dark for many.




Hm, very nice to know.

(enlighten me)

Ramblings [21 Nov 2004|07:02pm]
[ mood | thoughtful ]

Ah! Sports are so nerve-wracking! I just got back from my volleyball game, which (thankfully) we won. I swear, I thought our team was going to lose because we were incredibly sluggish the first game. Then we pulled ourselves together and grabbed the last games. I think it's this competition that I love most about volleyball. That, and actually getting out there on the court to play. It's definately a passion.

As my mom drove home after the game, my brother (who was also in the car) asked if we could stop by at McDonald's for a Happy Meal. My mom said, "No, I don't have any money right now. I had to pay for your sister's socks for volleyball." Yet, just the thought of my mom--any mom--saying that no, she couldn't pay for McDonald's because she didn't have any money really made me think: there are people out in the world who really do say "No, I don't have any money right now," and not just because they had to pay for something else and didn't have a few extra dollars, but because their money had to go to a different cause, like their rent, or bus ticket because they couldn't afford a car. I think that now, with Thanksgiving rolling around, it's really made me aware of things like that, and how my mom might say that she didn't have any money on her, but another mom might say the same thing but mean it in a different way. It really makes me feel grateful, as sentimental as that sounds, especially from me.

(1 thought | enlighten me)

[21 Nov 2004|08:54am]
[ mood | content ]

It's been a long long while since I last posted here. Not that I've had much to say. I'm going to Las Vegas for Thanksgiving. That could either be really good or incredibly terrible. Holidays in places that aren't my own home tend to be along those extremeties.



You Are the Stuffing




You're complicated and complex, yet all your pieces fit together.
People miss you if you're gone - but they're not sure why.



I love these quizzes. ;)

(enlighten me)

[13 Nov 2004|10:49pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Contradiction
F:

Your Beauty lies
in Contradiction. Controversial, unpredictable, and
never what anyone expects.
You appearance and your personality are two
opposite things. Even your
appearance sends different signals to different
people. To some you may look
innocent and sweet, to others you look mysterious
and intimidating at the same
time. No one ever knows what to expect with you.
You are a little bit of
everything all mixed together. You can be watching
the football game with the
guys one minute and the next out shopping at the
mall. You seem to be almost a
different person every time you meet someone, but
at the same time you know
exactly who you are and there is always that one
thing that makes you you. You
enjoy keeping people guessing and people love how
completely unpredictable you
are.



Some Things
That Represent You:



Element:
Fire, Water Animal: Chameleon Color:
Dark Tones, Light
Tones Song: Everything by Alanis Morriesette
Expression:
Half-smile



Gemstone:
Opal Mythological Creature: Gryphon,
Half-breeds Sign:
Gemini Planet: Mars Hair Color: Red
Eye Color:
Brown



Quote:
"Appearances can be deceiving."




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Weird. My sign is Gemini, my eyes are brown, and my hair has a reddish tint to it. Of course, the red is from me coloring my hair a year ago...

(1 thought | enlighten me)

To the Scientific God [26 Oct 2004|09:40pm]
[ mood | curious ]

Suppose there really is a God, or a Buddha, or any other religeous idol. I'll just use God as an example, because he's the easiest right now.

If he created man (and woman), why does the Catholic Church degrade science, which was discovered by man (and woman)? If everything has a purpose, then wouldn't God have intended for man (and woman) to discover ways to disprove Him? Isn't that all part of what he "intended"? Then, suppose he didn't intend for his creations to advance as much as we have, as quickly as we have. Maybe, he wanted us to learn more and more, little by little, but not this quickly. Well, assuming that's so, would he be genuinely worried about this; would he be worried that humans are picking apart his creations too quickly with science, seeing nature not as his creation, but as species classified into scientific groups instead? Not to say that everybody is like this, but many are. Just something I've been thinking about as of late.

(enlighten me)

[26 Oct 2004|09:38pm]
[ mood | disappointed ]

It's raining, it's pouring... and I have volleyball practice tomorrow. Outdoors. Oh, for the love of God...

(enlighten me)

Your Average Teenager, At Your Service [21 Oct 2004|09:00pm]
[ mood | amused ]

I was just thinking as I read back over the last entry I posted in my LJ, I really don't talk like the teenager I am. I should be rambling on about guys and my friends and the unfairness of life, but somehow, I don't. I don't even know WHY, because I'd willingly do it should anybody ask me to. Now that I think of it, I don't even know why THIS bothers me so much.

Well, I need to start SOMEWHERE...

Kyle* and George* are such dorks. All they do is bother me all day, tripping me, laughing at me, making up conversations I have with my other friends, punching me when I'm least expecting it, knocking my books over in class, smearing glue on the floor by my feet so my shoes will get sticky... The list can go on forever. Half the time I'm convinced it's because they somehow take pleasure in my discomfort, the other half of the time I wonder if maybe it's one of those "he only pretends to hate you, but he really likes you" kind of things. Note that these two are my FRIENDS, and not just two guys that hate me. (God, I can't believe we're even friends. I've known them for... nine years now. Good lord.)

Today, I jokingly asked a teacher to give the both of them detention for wreaking havoc on me once again, and with that, I walked away as the teacher had a little chat with them. Before entering my class, Kyle and George came up to me and said they had detention for a week and also had to turn in a 500-word essay the next day. Oddly, Kyle couldn't stop laughing when he said it, but George looked dead serious, and angry. Well, for all the things those two do to me, I thought that punishment was a bit harsh, so I confronted the teacher again, telling her that I was joking and geniunely thought the two of them didn't deserve the punishment. Then SHE goes about telling me that they didn't really get any punishment at all, because honestly, she's not the kind of person to give out punishments at all. Apparently Kyle and George acted it all out, even though Kyle sucked at it. Well, at least George had me fooled. Quite well, I might add. He should take up acting.

(enlighten me)

Rain, and the Random Ramblings [21 Oct 2004|08:43pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

Oh, the weather has been just wonderful here. I love it when it rains, and it's been doing so quite often lately. It stopped today, and the sky has cleared up a lot, but thunder storms are just around the corner. What is a bit discouraging is the fact that because our school doesn't even have a gym, because there isn't enough room for one anywhere around the school, if it rains--which it will--we will have no choice but to cancel practice. Our team is doing so well, too! Hopefully we can get a gym at the YMCA or something similar soon. The whole team has been more eager than ever to get our season going.

I've started rewriting and posting a lot of Elements of Magic, my first fanfiction, at the Realm. When I look back on it now, I see so many grammatical mistakes I somehow skipped over as I was writing. There's also a lot of information that just doesn't make sense, or fit together. I realized that I also leave a lot of loose ends and unexplained events or character traits. I'm working on fixing everything up now, so that in the end, everything will make sense. And to think, it was only a year ago that I started the original Elements of Magic that, miraculously, had many readers.

(contemplates the fact that it's been an entire YEAR...)

This is quite random, but I honestly feel as if I must possess one of the Dooney and Bourke handbags from the Charm collection. Somehow, the bag strikes my fancy and I've decided that since my mother will not help in buying it, I will have to begin saving my money in order to buy it by Christmas. It shouldn't actually be too difficult, because I've figured out a way to make $24 each week. What I do, is I either make dinner or do the dishes for $2 each day, for seven days a week. That's $14 already. Then, I add that to the $10 I get each week for cleaning the entire second floor of our house. Voila! $24 in seven days! With the money I already have saved, and that I will definately receive for Christmas (assuming, of course, my family does not somehow lose all of the money we possess), I should be able to purchase the bag with ease.

{reads over entry and wonders why it is typed as if it were a manual for the most literate of people)

(enlighten me)

Surprises [16 Oct 2004|10:01pm]
[ mood | amused ]

Hm, my mother has just presented me with a $100 giftcard to Bloomingdale's. Apparently she got it as a gift but decided she didn't like the clothes there so she's handing the card over to me. I wonder... If I decide that I don't like anything, maybe I can exchange the card for cash with somebody who'd want the card? Perhaps my aunt...

(enlighten me)

Utterly Exhausted, Yet Again [13 Oct 2004|09:22pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

Oh my goodness, I am so completely drained. Today has been too eventful. From the moment I woke up, to right now, my mind has been in constant motion over what is going to take place in minutes to come. Only right now am I finally at some sort of peace.

First off, my family had a late start this morning, which resulted in me being late for school, again. This is the second day in a row, and my principal, whom I hate with a passion, asked why I was late. It's not something that's exactly her BUSINESS, that nosy bitch, but I suppose it doesn't look too good when you're student body president and you're late. But what can I say? I got up late, traffic was terrible, I live a goddamn half-hour away anyway, and I just don't have energy to argue. Much less the patience.

After having literature, I got a 20 minute break before my next class, in which I studied frantically for the history test that was coming up next. I swear, I have an overload of information in my brain right now, and I don't like it one bit. I already know I got at least two questions wrong already, although I'm hoping it won't count as more than a four-point deduction from the final score. I'm perfectly willing to argue my answers in an essay question about the Great Awakening though. I can practically predict that my teacher will mark it at least partially wrong for being a little vague, but he's an idiot anyway. I can probably get full credit for it if I support my point with enough information, whether it's relevant or not.

After school, I had volleyball practice for an hour and a half, and being that our school doesn't have a gym, we were playing outside in the sweltering heat instead. That took the remaining energy I had right out of me. By the end of practice, I could hardly muster a decent UNDERHAND serve, much less an overhand. My ball control was terrible too.

About two hours after practice, I hauled myself off to piano lesson. That was a complete bore in itself, but I did manage to hear most of the debate in Arizona on the radio before my lesson. Anyway, my piano teacher was easier with me today, because I'm positive she could tell that my heart was just not in it. I could barely keep my eyes open; it required too much energy. I did feel a bit better after showering though. A bit more refreshed.

Well, off to study math now. Chapter test tomorrow... (groan)

(enlighten me)

The Stress That is My Life [12 Oct 2004|06:25pm]
[ mood | drained ]

My teacher is such an idiot. He tries to grade 30 science tests in one night, and just ends up making mistakes in his corrections and test scores! Because of his stupidity, my grade was raised from a B+ to an A-, something I'm very happy about. This week, despite having had Monday off, is going to be stressful. I have tests all week, a column for the school newspaper due on Friday, a meeting with the principal about a school fundraiser, a pancake breakfast to serve at my church at 7:30 in the morning, AND a mass I have to serve on Sunday. I am going to die. I just wish I could sit down and do absolutely nothing. My ideal way to spend my alone time would be in a slightly cool empty room with wood floors and a nice large window where I could watch the rain. Then the room would have to be furnished with just a mattress, a pillow, and a plain down blanket. I could stay in that room for hours, thinking about anything. Hm, I just wish I could.

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